There, I said it.
I started NaBloPoMo to force myself to write more and put myself out there so that people would hopefully read my blog and give me some feedback. Now, I have just spent some time on Blogher reading blogs about bloggers who suddenly quit and leave their readers hanging. I want to give props to those bloggers who have been writing every day. I started late and am still "behind". Only four days in a row, and I am starting to get nervous and worried about what I should write each day.
I just read a blog entry by Emily at http://www.simplysahm.blogspot.com/ on how she wants to train for a marathon again but is working through her own nerves about the commitment. And I was right there with her when I read it, thinking ME TOO.
It has been over 90 days since I ran the Tacoma Narrows Half. I didn't win of course (not even close, in fact some ninety-year-olds and a couple moms pushing heavy jogging strollers totally passed me up), but I didn't do super bad. I came in just under my goal time for my first half. I was in the groove, loving running and feeling great. After the high of finishing and getting the cool glass and free chocolate milk, I let the blues get to me, and then life... and now it has been months since I have run. And I miss it. I want to start again, but I am dreading the first few weeks.
Right after the half, another reason I felt so good was because I had conquered the hill by my work. It's not just any hill. It's a sneaky, long, sloping, awful hill that tries to tear your leg muscles in half. I just about died so many times on that hill. And now I have to start over again, and this time in the cold and wind and rain. Boo hoo. Poor me. Or I can take the wimpy, winter route and run on the treadmill in the garage, with the dog and cats staring at me with pity in their eyes.
All I know is that it is time for me to start running again. I loved it, and I miss it. So, expect some kind of running update from me occasionally. And maybe even a history of my on-again, off-again relationship with running.